They rise in the morning, they sleep in the dark.

Until you find that guy but are to scared to trust that he’s the one because you’ve been hoping and praying for this for so long…..

(Source: tommomybodyisready)

I feel so fucking depressed lately! these new anti-depressants arent doing shit! :( I just want to lay in bed and stare at the ceiling all day! the only thing that makes me get out of bed everyday is when I remember that if I don’t I’ll burn less calories! like wtf is wronge with me! i want to gain weight! but i dont :( im so scared my boyfriend is going to go back to his ex thats its killing me inside! maybe that’s what makes me not want to eat…. he said yesterday that he likes the fact that im fit and healthy, that he can see me being older and still in shape… what if we do end up together for that long and im not in shape… what if i get fat….. will he leave me? it was probably some stupid harmless comment, it was meant to be a compliment im pretty sure acctully. its just bugging me. fuuuuuuck! i just want to be held. and loved. im scared of it though. im just really fucking depressed right now!!!!!! :( I just dont feel like talking to anyone. at school, at home, at work. I just want to lay in bed and mope! did i mention i totally fail at math this semester too!? it makes me want to cry!

I wish I was beautiful.

I wish I was loved.

I wish i was happy.

I wish I was PERFECT.

my dad threw out my protein powder cause he thinks its making me loose weight!!!! urrrrrrrrrrrgh!!!!!!!!!! like WTF?!?!  opinions please?